Spring to Summer

Did you ever wonder how and why you make a decision? Did you ever wonder who and/or what you make a decision for? The last while has been somewhat of an eye opener in ways. At times disappointing, brutal, foreboding but at all times a mental and positive relief of shackles which once were hidden to my heart and soul. Now I am not saying that I will not be fooled again......in one sense I would welcome it as it will help me to continue to learn and become stronger.

So what on earth am I talking about I hear you say.......get to the bloody point!!! I know.....I do have a tendency to waffle somewhat. Well the point is that I never truly appreciated how much I had made a decision, lived my life in a certain way at times which was totally against my own ideals and in the long run did and/or could have negatively affected my happiness. I am not saying on the other hand that one should always life for ones own wishes.....that would be purely selfish, self absorbed, self righteous and WRONG. However, we should recognise when it comes to making those fundamental decisions about what we do and we do not want, what would and would not affect our happiness. Life is not worth living if living in the shadow of someone else/a malformed ideology or on a path which is not our own.

It all boils down to listening to our own inner voice. The older I get, the more I realise that we all have an inner instinct, a sixth sense as it were, which tries to guide us in the right direction and which also tries to inform us how best to live our own life and how best to interact positively with those around us, our loved ones and those closest to us. It is about a respect for self and others, the environment that we live in. That we all have our part to play and we should play the hand of cards dealt to us wisely, intelligently and with respect.

Maybe it is the advance of age........crossing a threshold from Spring to Summer.....where nature has now shown all its blossoming beauty and worth....the potential of what was, is, will be and never will be again. For me it is a different stage of adulthood where the rose tainted glasses are off and life's truths become that much more apparent and evident. That to best live your life you must be careful to make honest and truthful choices and decisions. Life will continue on come what may....learn from the past.....live the present well.....and look forward to the future that your present will form.