Jump off the cliff......or not?

I am sure we have all heard the phrase regarding how sometimes you need to jump off the cliff.....jump into the unknown so as to take a risk/leap of faith etc so as to change your life, with the hope that that change would be for the better. However, what if NOT jumping is the more risky option?

Just a week ago, I was faced with a life changing decision. One option would be new job, "new" country. The other option no job, same country. Which to take? A new job and "new" country in a sense to me was to jump from the cliff, the other to not jump. In a very strange way, not jumping proved to be of greater risk.

To jump would have been into the unknown.....not knowing if the job, company and country was the right option for my happiness and well being. Such a decision I have made previously in my life....and it was the right decision. So why not this time? Because this time, for various reasons, the feeling was that I would not be jumping into such a decision....rather.....a force was trying to push me over the cliff.....i.e. a decision against my instinct and gut feeling.

Some might say that this push feeling is more a fear, afraid to jump. In this case, you would not be right. In fact, the fear feeling I had was in fact to not jump and therefore remain unemployed......not knowing when I will get a job or what kind a job I would find. Fear also of staying in a country which would force me to change my life in ways that may or may not lead to greater happiness. Staying on this path in fact posed a greater risk, it brings about a greater leap of faith as rather than jumping and "falling" into a new life, I must now walk a path unknown and face whatever challenges it brings. To walk away from the cliff edge this time, is to acknowledge that this path has not yet come to an end, that this path I continue on come what may.....until I am sure that it has come to its natural end.

It goes to show that in life, we all have an inner indicator, a gut feeling as it were, which we must learn to listen to.....so that we can know when it is our gut feeling that is speaking to us, and not fear. To learn to trust oneself, to trust in our own truth and have faith in our decisions and convictions.