Release

It was so weird yesterday. I had to return equipment, badges etc for my old job....and in doing so had to go to one of the offices that I spent time in during the last two years. When I first was given notice.......I was dreading this moment, believing that should it come to me being released from my current company, that the fear of being unemployed, no earnings, would be too much to bear.

Therefore, imagine my surprise yesterday when I left the building and my initial reaction was relief!!!! In a bizarre turn of events, the termination in paper.....in a tangible form, that my old working life was no more brought about a feeling in my mind where I felt free.....free to choose, free to dream, free to go after a job that I want. Now of course, I always had such liberty. However, when one is in the middle of a busy job, you can quite easily and unknowingly silence your own dissatisfaction about a situation. I suppose this is what, in the past, separated me from those people who enjoy and are successful in their working lives. They do not waste time in a role/company that they know is not for them and/or conflicts with their internal happiness and/or career aspirations.

So I walked out of the building.....looked across the street to my former office and there were no regrets. Of course I am not saying that I won't make mistakes in my working life again in the choices I make......indeed I am expecting too! However, what I would like to change is self awareness.....albeit a greater one of time, effort, happiness in relation to my work. We all spend so much time there. I no longer want to create a mental cage for myself where I feel unable to leave a role/company due to fear! It just brings to the fore how controlling fear can be in our lives, IF we cede power to it! So for the future, I need to build a greater nest egg so that I can easily survive a period of unemployment.

Feel the fear and do it anyway.