Last week I had an interview.....all in German....and boy was my performance CRAP...C........R......A......P!! It was the end of the day.....I was tired...not the best conditions already for speaking a language that is not your own.....but more importantly for some reason and out of nowhere.....a wave of nerves came over me before I knew what hit me. It was like a tidal wave......once it struck....and where one was unprepared for its force.....then there is no stopping its effects and all you can do is aim for damage limitation.
So today......I had two interviews (for the same job) back to back.....all in German. Needless to say I was not looking forward to it. However.....something different happened. No......I did not have an out of body experience resulting in absolute fluent flawless German coming from my tongue....I wish :-). What was different......from the depths of my stomach I felt the "nerve wave" gathering strength. This time.....I just said to myself (talk to myself frequently....healthy attitude :-)), STOP! Literally I said to the nerves....NOT this time! It was an odd feeling as the awareness of the nerves was palpable......like they had a life of their own, a force within a force.....like a tidal wave. This does not mean I did not feel any nerves whatsoever. On the other hand, my being aware of them....reduced their power....their force.....I was prepared for them.
I got through both interviews....and I did not understand everything nor did I not make any mistake.....but I survived, did my best and that felt good. Goes to show how self awareness can be so vital so as to prevent a negative force wreaking its havoc. Here's to awareness.
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